Why am I being judged so harshly?

If you look upon your oun question you will find out that youre excusing yourself stating that they aren't religious or strict. Looks like you started something that not even you know when or how it is going to end (if ever), there's your answeer. Also not that I say that you're ok, or not, but think in what you're doing; you maybe diong those thing to get the attention to you, and it's working the opposite way that you expected; you maybe doing that because you wants to looks like or act like someone else, and if that is the case, you're just loosing yourself to be someone else; finally think for one second if become to be in the presence of your creator (GOD), How are you going to feel? Honestly are going to be happy, concern, embarr??? Be honest to your self and let GOD leads you to your future. What future? The one that you're starting to build today. God Bless.